19, A doctor in making


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A confession

Fatini Irdina | 11:05 AM | 0Comments |
Still too early to feel the stress I think. Yeah but some of my friends already did, they said they already stress with medical school. I know that we must study hard. Things are not that easy no matter how genius you are, but if you dont stick to books, you cant answer the questions.

I swear there are so many things to remember. Even more than my tears :'( But this is the path that I have chosen. I must have faith to bear it. I can't look backwards anymore. I must give all my heart to this field. I have to love medicine by my heart, not only words so that things could be easier (how I wish)

Every one got different story in their life. Sometimes things could be unexpected, sometimes there will be a plot twist; but bear in mind these words "Allah knows the best for me and this is the best for me".

If before this, I wish to pursue my study abroad, and I used to be dissapointed for not getting offer for that, but know Im really really blessed that Allah put me here. Honestly, I never knew about this place before SPM, and now this would be my home for 5 years. I am so blessed to have friends that I have right now.

So whatever it is, face it with heart and always remember Allah knows the best for you :)


Long Journey to go

Fatini Irdina | 12:49 AM | 0Comments |
Hello people. This is my first time updating blog in my degree life. It is almost a month that i have been here and so far everything is still okay.

So, what should i update about medical school?

So far everything is still okay that we just start our lecture last week. Because we have a week of orientation or being called WOW (Welcoming Orientation Week) and 2 weeks of PPD module, where we learned about ethics, altruism and something like that (and we also have an asessment at the end of the module okayyyy so cannot take it easy people)

Kat sini system belajar dia based or module (or other medschool would call it sistem blok or seangkatan dengannya). Maksudnya kita akan belajar module by module, and setiap kali lepas satu module akan ada exam. Contohnya year 1, we have 5 module, which is FOMS1, FOMS2, MSSK, CVS and RESPIRATORY. Haa then lepas module FOMS1, akan ada asessment, then baru masuk FOMS2 dan begitu lah seterusnya. Pastu if kita ada fail mana2 module (mohon dijauhkan), kena repeat exam balik time dah habis semua modul tu.

K tak paham pun takpe, saje nak share.

Hahaha

Tapi yang zzzzzzz nya kan nanti at the end of year tu, akan ada first PROFESSIONAL EXAM yang mana soalannya merangkumi year 1 and year 2, macam SPM balik la gamaknya kan.... may Allah ease....ameen

Okay cerita pasal asrama pulak, so far alhamdulillah selesa sangat2 (kecuali macam panas la sikit sbb ada satu kipas je dalam bilik yang ada 4 orang) so you guys can imagine la bandar Ipoh ni panas gaissss. I'm quite lucky sbb bilik dekat gila dgn toilet and depan bilik plk ada water cooler, so senang sangat la nak buat megi ke dahaga ke apa hahahaha

K pasal cuti plk yang ni mcm quite sedih la sbb based on takwin official macam tak banyak pun cuti, Huhuhuhuhu thats why im trying to redha je lah.

Mohon doa daripada sesiapa yang baca ni, agar perjalanan aku 5 tahun kat sini dipermudahkan. ameen:)

An appreciation letter

Fatini Irdina | 10:14 AM | 0Comments |
A few days before my degree life starts. Of course im nervous, and still wondering what life will i live after this? Other than that, im also afraid of losing my precious friends when i enter the new phase of life. I know that people come and go in our life, but this Fatini really can't accept that fact. I am the one who is really hard to move on. I know that i may slowly lose my bestfriends since high school, eh nope, we still bestfriends but not as close as before. Haaa thats what i mean.

That is why im really afraid if that thing happen to this one precious friend who is very special to me. I have gone that 'phase' so many times, but with this person, it's really hard to accept if that 'phase' happen (i hope it will never happen) We are miles away and we will be busy with our study commitment after this but please stay close to me no matter how busy we are :'(

You might read this or not read this but the reason i want to write this in my blog because one day i will read back and tell myself that i have a very precious friend that i dont want to lose.

To you,
I never regret to know you. Thank you for having me as your friend, as your best friend. I know that i am quite annoying sometimes, my jokes are mostly lame (your jokes also lame ok), i might always spamming your whatsapp just to grab your attention when im boring (but now i rarely do this), and  i am the most sensitive and emotional girl in the world when it is the time :((((

I may not a perfect friend for you. But im trying my best to be a good friend for you. I will be there for you whenever you need me. I will listen to your stories, your favourite movie, your favourite characters and everything. Thank you for needing me. Thank you for still trusting me. Sometimes all I need to go on is to remember that I'm not alone and you are counting on me, too.

Thank you for the laughs, for the cries and for everything in between. I love you with all my heart and can't wait to see you again. Don't give up. One day, we will cross the line together with glory.

Missing you,

Your bff.


mengaji zaman kecik dulu

Fatini Irdina | 8:08 AM | 0Comments |
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We know that dalam dunia ni takde benda yang kita terus pandai and boleh kuasai. Semuanya perlukan latihan dan kena buat tiap hari sampai pandai. Takde orang pun yang goyang kaki  je dari kecil, tup tup dapat straight As plus dalam SPM. Eveything need effort right.

Nak cerita la zaman kecik kecik dulu masa umur 6, 7 tahun. Masa tu baru nak baca Quran kecil or we called (muqaddam/juz 30). Masa 4,5 tahun kena start baca iqra' dulu. Kalau tak silap ada iqra' 1 sampai iqra' 6. Dulu punya lah malas gila nak mengaji, lagi lagi bila dah Quran besar sebab banyak nak kena habiskan (lol). Lagi lagi bila kena mengaji dengan umi ataupun nenek (kalau dengan abah macam boleh consider sikit hehehe), kena baca sampai 1 muka surat huhu. And sebelum baca tu, kena baca sendiri dulu baru boleh umi/abah/nenek ajar. And dulu selalu berebut dengan adik adik siapa yang nak diajar dulu. huhu. Childhood memories:')

Aku pernah nangis masa mengaji dulu sebab yang ajar tu garang sangat. I kennot la hahaha. Siap pegang rotan lagi dan pernah kena sebab malas mengaji. Teruk betul la rasanya. Disebabkan kemalasan tu, my parents hantar mengaji dekat rumah Tok Guru Mengaji dekat dengan rumah. Yang bestnya kat rumah Tok Guru tu ada jual aiskrim, haaa so tiap petang balik mengaji, mesti beli. Tu yang semangat sikit tu. Dan alhamdulillah, kat situ lah aku dapat belajar tajwid sekali dengan bacaan yang betul. Alhamdulillah sangat2 sebab benda tu still boleh ingat sampai harini and also apply dalam kelas akademik KAFA dulu, and also subjek PAI masa sekolah menengah.

Bila dah besar ni, benda tu semua depend on diri sendiri sbb parents kita dah tak paksa macam dulu lagi dah, diorang dah tak bagi rotan kalau malas nak mengaji semua tu. Tapi sebagai muslim, kita tahu yang kita ada tanggungjawab besar right? And Al-Quran lah panduan hidup kita.

Haa sementara teringat ni, nak share lah satu petua yang seorang sahabat pernah kongsikan waktu sekolah menengah dulu.

Time kita ada masalah, rasa down, serabut atau perlukan semangat, kita bukak mana mana page Al-Quran, sebelum tu kita niatkan nak tenangkan hati kita dengan ayat ayat Al-Quran. Insya Allah page yang anda bukak tu, akan jadi petunjuk kepada anda :)

Selamat mencuba!!

takut kucing

Fatini Irdina | 6:54 AM | 0Comments |
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Tonight im gonna tell you one of my weakness that many of my friends didn't believe it which is 'takut kucing' or it is called as Ailurophobia.

Ailurophobia is a type of specific phobia: the persistent, irrational fear of cats. The name comes from the Greek αἴλουρος (ailouros), "cat" and φόβος (phóbos), "fear". Other names include felinophobia, elurophobia, and cat phobia.

Yessss, i know that cats especially kitten are damn cute. I do admit. Kucing comel sangat kot. Serious aku tak benci pun kucing and i love them but i just cannot be with them. I even tak mampu lagi nak sentuh kucing tu even secomel mana pun hahahaha yes this is Fatini okay and Fatini is afraid of cats :'(

Kat KMKN, many of my friends love cats. Kalau nak tahu aras yang kiteorang duduk tu dah macam pusat jagaan kucing dah, we even have our batch adopted cat named Ody. Diorang memang sangat sangat sayangkan kucing termasuk lah aku cuma aku masih tak mampu nak belai kucing tu macam orang lain huhu.

I did try okay nak dekati kucing tu, bukannya tak pernah try langsung. I try nak pegang anak kucing, yes the good achievement is i manage to touch the kitten tapi when i about to angkat that kitten, hahahahaha i still can't resist this phobia :'(

Phobia ni masa darjah dua lagi kalau tak silap. Masa tu ada sekor kucing liar ni, always main2 kat rumah kiteorg. Kejadian pertama is masa tu aku, adik adik and sepupu nak makan tengahari kat rumah lepas balik sekolah. Then kiteorang makan kat bawah masa tu, and kucing tu pun datang nak makan sekali. Then we all macam bangun la taknak bagi dia kacau then kucing tu pun ikut sekali kiteorang gerak. Pastu dia kejar sepupu aku tu sampai keliling perumahan you know. Masa tu zaman kecik lagi and tak pandai handle kucing lagi. Tapi serious kucing tu memang sangat liar and menakutkan. Tapi masa tu okay lagi sebab kucing tu tak buat pape lagi to me. Then next kejadian yang sangat sangat memberi kesan sampai harini is aku yang kena kejar sampai kena cakar teruk kat kaki. Apa masalah entah kucing tu, suka sangat cakar orang haishh

That's why la till now I still cannot go on with cats. Geli dan menakutkan, i really dislike kalau ada kucing main main kat kaki or ada kucing time nak makan. Yes i know we must kasihi kucing, and aku pun memang akan bagi sikit makanan kat kucing tapi masalahnya makanan yang kita bagi tu dia taknak, dia nak jugak makan yang dalam pinggan tu hwarghhh.

Malam ni aku dah siap siap google cara nak handle Cats Phobia ni tapi entahlah nak berkesan ke tak, we will see it later *wink*

  • Prolonged exposure to cats gradually is important to overcome Gatophobia.  This may be done in steps: (i) seeing the cat from far, (ii) looking at its pictures, (iii) saying its name and so on. These limited forms of exposure are highly instrumental in eroding the fear of cats.
  • For gradual desensitization to be effective, it is important that the phobic stays in the situation and practices it many times. Doing so can be beneficial in reducing the use of strategies of avoidance of cats such as carrying safety cues, and other overprotective behaviors.
  • It is important to enlist the help of friends or family members when undergoing exposure therapy. Trained therapist can also help achieve positive results.
  • One must also re-learn to think differently about cats. There are many methods of doing so: one must identify anxious thoughts, beliefs and predictions and replace all these with more realistic ones. These strategies can be used along with exposure therapy to overcome the fear of cats.

Credit to this website.

And also if you guys ada pengalaman takut kucing like me, and now dah okay, you guys boleh komen kat bawah ni eh. Your tips or comments are really appreciated :))

Medical Korean Drama

Fatini Irdina | 8:25 PM | 0Comments |
Hello to all kdrama lovers and non kdrama lovers out there!!

Today I nak share my top 3 fav korean drama (medical theme) alaa yang tak medical theme nanti la i share okay.

Credit the synopsis to Drama Fever

1) Descendants of the sun
A romcom smash hit that deftly combines romance in the hospital setting with military action and foreign locales.
A military man meets a beautiful doctor in the hospital and is instantly attracted to her. Will she fall for him too? Fate has a special plan. The popular drama's phenomenal success has afflicted quite a few fans with "DOTS fever." These fans probably wouldn't mind visiting the hospital just to see Dr. Song Hye Gyo in action, and perhaps glimpse her beau Song Joong Ki.

You know why I love this drama so much???? Sebab every episode tak pernah mengecewakan seriously!! Full of suprise and memang tak rugi tengok la. Hero and heroin sangatlah feel and now now SongSongCouple pun dah nak kahwin in real life. Even though this drama actually more to military, tapi banyak jugak yang relate to medical actually terutama masa scene earthquake dekat Uruk tu memang inspiring gila la. Moreover, lagu lagu OST dia memang best gila la.


2) Doctor Stranger

A suspenseful drama about a genius doctor who is secretly from North Korea.
The drama stars Lee Jong Suk as the doctor living under disguise while searching for Jin Se Yun, his long-lost love who may or may not have survived being chased by North Korean agents. Park Hae Jin is his rival in the hospital with his own revenge plans. Will love or the desire for revenge win?
 This drama also daebak and i love the surgery part the most, sampai boleh hafal nama nama alat surgery yang digunakan hahaha. Awal awal memang tak faham sangat and agak boring sikit but then bila dah tahu jalan cerita memang tak puas tengok la. Boleh belajar banyak medical term dalam cerita ni and also boleh tahu jugak pasal politik between Korea Utara and Korea Selatan.

3) Doctor Crush / Doctors

A sizzling romance drama about doctors whose personal and professional lives intersect from the past to the present.
Park Shin Hye plays a high school delinquent who was inspired by her teacher Kim Rae Won to become a doctor. Her tough personality helps her face difficulties and overcome obstacles in life. When she meets her teacher as a colleague in the hospital many years later, will they become equal partners in love and life?

Okay drama ni pulak love between doctors haa yang suka lovey dovey boleh tengok cerita ni plus hero dia hensem gak (even macam tua sikit en) and Park Shin Hye is so stunning laa. Cerita ni ajar banyak benda that is siapa pun boleh berjaya dalam hidup ni. Tak nak la citer panjang, korang  tengok je nanti okay? *wink*

Actually banyak je lagi yang relate to medical field tapi ni yang based on my friends recommended me to watch la. Memang la drama life and real life is dua benda yang obviously berbeza, but tak salah kan nak belajar nilai nilai positive from the drama? Hehehe

Google Hangout

Fatini Irdina | 9:39 AM | 0Comments |
Nak dijadikan cerita, hari ni sebenarnya aku berazam nak start packing. Tapi biasalah nak start packing, kena ada mood dulu en. So aku pun unpack la dulu barang barang dari KMKN (lol masa ni baru nak unpack) . Actually memang niat aku taknak unpack pun sebab nak bawak ke RCMP terus, tapi tadi macam tertanya tanya pulak amende la yang ada dalam kotak tu haha.

So, mula2 jumpa la perkakas2 gadget macam monopod, lens camera semua tu. Then keluarkan benda tu, jumpalah satu bekas yang aku letak gambar2 yang aku tampal kat meja study kat KMKN dulu. Pastu apa lagi...mula lah masuk scene mengenang memori dulu (thats so me ok)

Belek punya belek gambar, then ada la gambar aku dan Aimy, and also aku dan Mar. Diorang ni bestfrriend aku sejak di KI lagi sebab sama sama jadi KP Dorm dulu. Aimy sekarang study kat Morocco manakala Mar pulak sambung kat DQ (hafizah to be ameen). So dah lama jugak la tak jumpa diorang ni and mestilah rindu banget dong.

Pastu aku pun hantar la kat group ws kiteorg, "korang bila free, jom skype 3 org"

Pastu Mar reply dia dah takde skype, Aimy pulak dah lupa password.

Masa tu aku mcm ok takpelah (dalam hati je ahhahaha)

Then tetiba Aimy suggestkan guna google hangout. Dan untuk pertama kali sepanjang 19 tahun hidup, aku baru tahu function google hangout ni. Excited gila kot. Berapa kali entah screenshot hahahaha sumpah rasa cam jakun gila guna bbenda alah tu padahal benda tu dah berzaman ada kat fon.

Dia macam ala ala skype la tapi lagi mudah sebab takyah install pun. Kalau nk bukak manual pun lagi senang. Tadi aku buat video call kat laptop, while type chat guna phone. Sebab excited ssangat plus lama tak tengok muka diorang.

So malam ni dapatlah kami bertiga bersua muka. Alhamdulillah makin cantikss kawan kawan saya sekarang. Aku terpikir gak la, antara kita tiga sape yang akan kawin dulu? Hahahahaa macam dah nampak siapa sebenarnya sebab dua orang tu mmg ramai yg admire hehehehheheh so mestilah bukan aku yang kawin dulu okayyyy. Tapi kita tak tahu jodoh kita sampai bila right? Entah2 ajal dulu yang datang menjemput, we never know.

Kesimpulannya, malam ni aku still tak start packing barang.

Kesian.

Eh silap.

Sekian.


The why(s)

Fatini Irdina | 2:51 AM | 0Comments |
A short entry- for anyone who have the same situation

Some people have too many "why(s)" in their head right now. But let me tell you- there's no use of asking, "why this happen to me", "why i be like this", "why i can't be like her", "why i must be on this path".........

It just waste of time. Seriously. Tiap benda yang berlaku atas kita, mesti akan ada hikmah yang tersembunyi suatu hari nanti.

It's okay untuk susah dahulu... one day, your hard work will be paid off. Jangan sesekali mempersoalkan apa yang Allah dah tentukan kepada kita.

If you are feeling weak at this moment, lets come back stronger and smarter.


Review Filem : Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck

Fatini Irdina | 6:42 PM | 0Comments |
A few days ago, a friend of mine suggestkan suruh tengok filem Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck.

So at first, i was like malasnya nak tengok... mesti mengantuk blablabla en sebab i am the one yang selalu tertidur sambil tengok movie (well i am cool right) hahahaha

For your information, filem ni ialah adaptasi novel karya HAMKA, so memang puitis sangat bahasa dan ayat ayat yang diorang gunakan.

Cerita ni mengisahkan tentang Hayati dan Zainuddin yang berbeza darjat, dan terpaksa terpisah disebabkan keluarga tak restu.

Datanglah Aziz (abang kepada kawan Hayati) yang berdarjat tinggi dan dia melamar Hayati. Hayati terpaksa terima disebabkan desakan keluarga. Then, Zainuddin bawa diri ke Surabaya and kembangkan bakat dia sebagai penulis yang terkenal.

Tapi ending cerita ni serious sedih sangat sangat ( i wont tell so go and watch ok *wink*) And cinta tak semestinya memiliki, right? 

What i want to tell you is.......CERITA NI SUMPAH BEST!!! YE DAN SAYA TAK TERTIDUR PUN MASA TENGOK NI.


Here are some beautiful love poem in this film;

“Jangan pernah bersedih. Jangan putus asa. Cinta itu bukan memakan hati, bukan membawa tangis, bukan membuat putus asa. Tetapi cinta itu menguatkan hati, menghidupkan pengharapan.”

“Cinta bukan mengajarkan kita untuk menjadi lemah, tapi membangkitkan kekuatan. Cinta bukan melemahkan semangat, tapi membangkitkan semangat.”


YANG NI QUOTE THE BEST FROM HAMKA :
“Cinta itu adalah perasaan yang mesti ada pada tiap-tiap diri manusia, ia laksana setitis embun yang turun dari langit, bersih dan suci. Jika ia jatuh pada tanah yang subur, di sana akan tumbuh kesucian hati, keikhlasan, setia, budi pekerti yang tinggi dan lain-lain perangai terpuji.” ― Hamka


Getting fat

Fatini Irdina | 1:39 AM | 0Comments |
Salam AidilAdha to all muslims in the world :')

Yeah you can relate the topic with the greeting right? Hahahaha yessss everyone, I am getting fatter. Third day of Aidiladha and got so many kenduri to attend (because my mom said kalau tak pergi kenduri orang, nanti sape nak datang kenduri kita *da bomb*)

What should i doooooooooo? Baby shark doo dooo

K so lame. Haha

So harini most of my friends dah daftar untuk degree but i still got 2 weeks at home, I wish you all best of luck! People said degree life is differ, but just walk the phase ok *wink*

Ok back to topic.

Any tips for me untuk kurus dalam masa 2 minggu? I know melayu will never can skip 'nasi' in their life and i am that 'melayu'.

I think jogging is also not suitable for me as i have no courage to go jogging at my neighbourhood are; alasan dia:
1) takde orang pun kat sini yang aku nampak jogging petang petang
2) ada anjing and also some pigs berkeliaran

Tapi tulah orang kata nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih kan.

So let's not keep giving excuse and find the solution.

And i think the solution is...................................

Just keep eating what you want, Fatini HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA

sebab enn nanti dah takda masa nak makan banyak ceni

Nanti degree lah start diet ok, baru boleh jimat duit sikit

Haaa gitu.

So there's no point of asking tips nak kurus here hahahahaahah but u can give me that tips la kalau ada so that i can amalkan that later

Okay i want to bersiap nak pergi my jiran punya kenduri

So have a nice day everyone and happy kenduri!!

Before degree

Fatini Irdina | 8:29 PM | 0Comments |
Harini sumpah la bosan yang teramat. Was watching SEA GAMES before, but my little sister said that it is her turn to watch her cartoon, so i give up because i am a very cool sister (lol)

Feeling quite not sihat beberapa hari ni, keep batuk and sakit tekak, maybe sebab cuaca because i have asthma (huh) tapi now feeling much better.

Counting days before my degree starts, actually there is one thing that i wish to do - meet my friends before they start their degree (most of IPTA registration is on the first week of September)

But.....yeah it is a 'but'.......hahaha

i don't know lah.

Seems like everyone is busy and i'm the only one yang still mereput di rumah.

Tapi takpelah, ada rezeki nanti we can gather. Hoping so, really do ;)

Btw, good luck for degree everyone.

Life will change. You will meet more new people, new friends, or jodoh maybe? *wink*

Hehe.

Till to write more later.

Love, Tini.

A beautiful morning

Fatini Irdina | 5:51 PM | 0Comments |
Yeay waking up to a beautiful morning and it is almost to the end of August already. How fast time flies :'( Having a cup of coffee while listening to my favourite songs, scrollong down instagram pictures (what a boring life i have *sigh*) and suddenly found a picture that lead me to post something on my blog today.

Btw, i promised to myself during foundation time in KMKN before that i will never consume nescafe during my holidays, but seem today i broke that promise haha. But this coffee seems like too much sweet hoho although Im a Kelantanese, but i dont like sweet things too much (but i love sweet action hewhew). But, it's not nescafe la, just kopiko but STILL I CONSUME CAFEIN HAHAHAHA

Yaa this morning also when i checked my phone, my friends are busy discussing about the registration stuff on whatsapp group while me still got no mood on doing anything (but luckily i already did that medical checkup thing- not so bad la kan hewhew). But, i think i already get another 1% of spirit to make it being installed for 2% now kah kah. It is because  i went to meet my sister on last Saturday because we talked about how med school is, and things related to it and so on.

I just unprivate my blog and got no much view since it tapi takpe i dont mind sangat pun pasal viewer. BUT I REALLY REALLY HOPE THAT MY FAMILY, MY RELATIVES AND ESPECIALLY MY FRIENDS WILL NEVER FIND OUT THIS BLOG ((please ya Allah)). hehe takdelah, as long as i can share what's on my mind with others and one day i can read back what have i written along the journey to be me, well I am me =)

Got many chores to do, so stay tune Insya Allah will try to write more whenever i have ideas *wink*

Medic

Fatini Irdina | 8:34 AM | 0Comments |
Hi gais. Feeling like want to back here again, so here is me.
The new blog doesnt have that kind of expressing truly from the heart (kah kah), so i decide to back on this blog so hello world!!!!!!

Memandangkan semua orang dah prepare nak masuk degree, while me and ma geng still enjoying cuti yang tersangat lah lama (sumpah bosan lol)

ok lah back to tajuk kat atas tu.

"Why MEDIC?"

Jeng jeng jeng.......

k hambar hahahahaha.

Soalan dia sumpah senang gila tapi jawapan...................masya Allah even kau google pun tak jumpa sebab benda tu actually ada dalam diri sendiri.

Nak jadi ceritanya...

First time aku nak jadi doktor ni masa darjah 2, sebab masa tu ada cerita "Cinta Medic" kat TV9. Tapi biasalah cita cita ni selalu berubah ubah, lol nampak sangat tak kuat pendirian en.

Sampailah nak form 5 tapi still tak tahu cita cita yang sebenarnya then i just applied for any scholarship yang layak, and only MARA offer MEDIC luar negara. I went for interview but i know i did not perform well so tak mengharap sangatlah nak dapat MARA ni.

And bila result MARA keluar, tak expect pun dapat, and bila tengok kod, rupanya MARA offer kos perubatan kat dalam negara which is foundation setahun kat KMKN and MBBS kat RCMP for 5 years.

You know what, i never know pun kewujudan KMKN before this hoho... and i never expect to study there and went to RCMP. Tapi tulah nak cakap, aturan Allah tak pernah salah. He knows the best for us :')

What i want to say is.....be strong myself, you can face it!!

Setakat hari ni hasil daripada perbualan dengan senior senior, takde sorang pun lagi yang cakap nak jadi doktor ni senang, ye takde benda yang senang pun kat atas dunia ni actually.

Aku hanyalah menaip ketika ini sebagai status ku yang hanyalah bakal pelajar perubatan September nanti, so memang masih terlalu awal untuk aku cerita panjang panjang.

yakinlah semua bahawa jalan cerita kita Allah dah susun cantik cantik. Insya Allah doakan aku dan kawan kawanku yang bakal melanjutkan pelajaran ke Unikl Royal College of Medicine, Perak.


Welcoming the new life

Fatini Irdina | 8:02 AM | 0Comments |
I'm not gonna to write much. Just hoping that everything will be fine after this. Ameen.


May Allah ease everything.

she's not that strong

Fatini Irdina | 9:03 AM | 0Comments |
when too many things in head, and can't think well, can't control emotion well, and at that time u will just follow your heart.

I thought that making some space would be fine for me, to think some more, and not a few moments after that I realise that im not that strong. the memories game is dem strong and hit me well until I give up to myself. I tried to make things well but I failed this time. I fail. Even almost to lose a friend.

And until this moment, things still like that, but luckily we still friend, at least I can still have you as a friend. That's still glad.

How can u forgot someone that mean so much to you. how can u forgot someone that always on ur mind. how can u forgot a friend that u love the most. how can u forgot someone that u will try to do anything as long as that friend can smile. Sorry I just can't.


What I can do right now is only, pray the best, I dont know how to fix the situation, and maybe the situation will be never as before again.

Just let the time heal.

Me.


Demi lovato - Get Back

Fatini Irdina | 2:29 AM | 0Comments |
"Get Back"

Demi lovato, one of my fav.

Don't walk away like you always do, this time.
Baby, you're the only thing that's been on my mind.
Ever since you left, I've been a mess
(You won't answer your phone)

I'll say it once, then I'll leave you alone
But I gotta let you know

I wanna get back
To the old days
when the phone would ring
and I knew it was you.
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to
Oh hold me [radio version],

like you mean it
Like you miss me,
'cause I know that you do.
I wanna get back
Get back with you
ayaaa...

don't look at me that way, I see it in your eyes.
Don't worry about me, I've been fine
I'm not gonna lie, I've been a mess
Since you've left

Everytime I see you, it gets more and more intense.

I wanna get back
To the old days
when the phone would ring
and I knew it was you.
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to
Oh hold me,
like you mean it
Like you miss me,
'cause I know that you do.
I wanna get back
Get back with you

You were the only one I wanted
You were the first one I fell for
You're the only one that I'm in need of
And I don't want to be lonely anymore

I wanna get back
To the old days
when the phone would ring
and I knew it was you.
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to,
Oh hold me
like you mean it
Like you miss me
'Cause you know you do
I wanna get back
Get back, with you

(Get back!) Get Back!
(Get back!) Get Back!
(Get back!) Get Back!
(Get back!) Get Back!

Oh hold me,
like you mean it
Like you miss me
'cause I know that you do

I wanna get back
Get back
I wanna get back
get back
Get back
Get back

Get back!

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Fatini Irdina | 12:06 PM | 0Comments |
I know it may takes time to move on, but moving on from your own bestfrien is the hardest thing to do. I dont even know how long it may takes. Yeah, maybe those busy schedule makes me feel better, I even think that I can handle this, I will never care about anymore, but deep in my heart, honestly I can't. I still care, I still wonder how are you, are you fine there? are you ok? did anyone hurt you? did you feel down again? Oh please, fatini.

I love the most when u talk about your dream. I love listening to your story, what u plan in the future, what inspire you, what make u down, your idole and etc
What I wish is only to see that you can finally be what you've dreamed for.

I know you are struggling very hard there. I can feel how hard it could be. I hate myself for being so immatured and so emotional when it comes to hard time in handling feelings. Yes, im here also trying hard struggling for my dream. Let us struggle first, and we'll celebrate later when we meet again in the future.

Take care.

Semester 2

Fatini Irdina | 11:59 AM | 0Comments |
Feeling quite not well (almost 3 weeks fuhh) but still can survive here. Even now I couldnt sleep I dont know why huhu.

Yeah, sem 2 has already begun. I know sem 2 gonna be tough, but i'm tougher!!! Kind of motivation to myself.

Banyak kerja of course, silibus pun lagi mendalam, banyak benda kena handle, banyak program and so many 'banyak' here so im not going to add more.

I just wanna have a memorable moment here and take it as valuable experience in life. I swear that I have already love this place but I only have about 4 months here and I know I will miss everything here, especially my beloved lecturers.

Yeah, maybe I will not miss my friends (RCU) because I still have 5 more years to live with them in RCMP *wink*

But still, I will miss my other friends (other programme) that help me a lot during my time here. I hope we could stay in touch in the future.

Moga sem 2 Fatini jadi lebih rajin, lebih matang dan lebih kurus (eh)
 
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